Baby N

 This month Baby N turned a year and half old! Holy cow...where did time go?!?!

N has been with me since she was 9 and a half months old...and it seems like she has been with me forever.

Time has gone by so fast and at the same time it has seemed like an eternity as I wait to find out our future together.
One of the beautiful things about foster care is that you have the opportunity to care and love on children who need a safe place to land. A place to call home...if only for a little while.
One of the most gut wrenching things about foster care is that even though you know going into it that you will only hold these children in your arms a short amount of time...everything inside you fights against the idea of one day possibly having to say goodbye.

With baby N... I have been so humbled to know and develop a relationship with her birth mother.
It is such a strange feeling to share motherhood with another woman for the same child...and yet so unbelievably beautiful at the same time. God's fingerprints are all over this situation...and regardless of the outcome my life has been forever changed.

We have a big court date next week and we will then follow up with a REALLY BIG court date at some point in December. (details comings soon)
I ask that you say a prayer for me and N...but if you could...please say a prayer for N's birth mom. Pray for peace and comfort as we move forward.

When I was a little girl I always thought I would be married, have three kids and live in the country.
Today, I am single, fostering to adopt and living in the City.

Life is not what I expected, but it is much better than anything I could have ever dreamed!